My portacath was the last visible sign of my cancer treatment. Radiation acted on my internal organs in a way I’ll never see with my eyes. Chemotherapy traveling through my bloodstream accessed every cell in my body, targeting stray cancer cells wherever they tried to hide. Multiple scars on my abdomen are visual reminders of …
Believing For You
Have you heard or read something and immediately thought of someone else? Maybe a shared memory or a memorable conversation from the past played out in your mind like it was yesterday. Singer and songwriter Dante Bowe, in a conversation recorded for YouTube https://youtu.be/Rg0ye1kWGPI with well known Christian artist, David Crowder, recalls sitting at his …
Smell The Color Nine*
What does cancer look like? What does it smell like, or taste like or feel like? To me, it feels like melting and it smells like the inside of an N95 mask during a four hour chemotherapy session. Even after I’m home and the mask is off, it’s the metallic taste that coats my tongue; …
Worst Case Scenario
What plays out in your head when you’re not concentrating on anything specific? My husband and I were talking earlier today after a second botched delivery of a piece of furniture we’d ordered and he commented that we should plan for the worst again on the next attempt. I agreed. I tend to plan for …
Faith That Sees Beyond
A heavy cloud hangs overhead tonight. Having flown above a storm, I see this dense grayness and imagine what must be just beyond what I can see. I’ve watched the sun set outside the international airport north of Houston, Texas before taking off on my flight home only to see the sun above the horizon …
Glitchy Faith
One of the major employers in my locale is a global automobile manufacturer. My younger son is employed in their logistics department where various parts are moved from shipping areas to the production line. He describes it as an entire city of electronics similar to the machine world in The Matrix (1999) movies. Each person …
How Suggestible Are You?
When you have the munchies, it seems like nothing really satisfies the craving, but anything close at hand looks appetizing. Four years after the birth of my third child, I was still carrying around what I not so affectionately referred to as baby weight. I joined a fifteen week accountability group at my church to …
Stay on the Path
I duck my head to avoid the low hanging branches and catch a spider’s web across my face. A few weeks ago, the leaf canopy was invisible; the #path bright with sunlight. Now sunlight dances across the darkened #path as saplings, weighted with spring leaves, lean in to greedily soak in the sun’s rays. These …
More Bread?
I buy groceries with good intentions. I mean for us to eat at home more often. I make my mental list and bring home enough perishables for several meals at a time. Invariably life happens and the produce that sits in that little crisper drawer in the bottom of the refrigerator wilts and the bread …
Are You Listening?
I find my mind drifting at times when I should be paying attention. My thoughts have wandered to future plans or past conversations. I excuse myself by saying I was distracted. Could you please repeat what you were saying? The same is true in my quiet time. As I read God’s Word, especially familiar passages, …
